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Title: "Vampire Moon"--Part Five (5/WIP)
The trip to the Keys had been a nice vacation from reality, but after another relaxed morning, the men headed back to Orlando to begin rehearsals for the new tour.
It was back to the daily grind--but with a difference. Kevin was still Kevin and Nick was still Nick. Kevin still had a wife and other responsibilities that didn't impact Nick directly. But Nick shared the biggest secret of Kevin's life. Which made Nick feel very special.
Many nights when Kevin would have normally been out 'partying' in the past were now spent in Nick's company. Still, they both felt discretion was necessary. Kevin used his little 'tricks' of mind-bending to keep other members of their tour from realizing anything had changed.
Nick didn't exactly feel 'right' about deceiving Brian; who was his best friend, after all. He didn't feel right that Kevin had to keep their relationship from Kristin, either. Somehow it felt bad to be seeing one another in this intimate way behind her back.
"Well now, it's for her own good, Nick," Kevin said, as they were lying tangled together after sex one night. "I'm not trying to be deliberately 'unfaithful' to her, after all. Hell, as if I haven't been in the past." Kevin chuckled to himself.
"You have?" Nick was shocked. He'd really believed Kevin had stopped his 'carousing' (as Brian called it) after the wedding vows had been spoken.
"Nicky, don't be so naive. Kristin surely knows 'her man' well enough to be quite aware of what I'm up to on the road. We have an understanding, boy. Don't ask, don't tell."
"Huh?" Nick was feeling like something of an idiot.
Kevin grunted. "She knows there's others. Both women and men. So unless she's actually interested--wants some little details for a turn-on--she doesn't ask me and I don't bother her with it." Kevin sighed. "Nicky, she's my wife and I love her. That's not goin' to change, no matter what."
The concept made Nick feel slightly bad. Did that mean he was always 'second best' to Kevin? That he couldn't possibly even worry Kristin if she did know?
"It means I love you both in different ways, silly boy," Kevin answered, cuffing Nick affectionately.
"You did it again," Nick replied, laughing.
"What?" Kevin obviously wasn't aware of his tiny faux pas.
"You read my mind."
"Well, I guess I just can't help myself with you, Nick. I've tried not to, heaven knows. But I'm just so 'in tune' with you. Seems like it comes about without my meaning for it to happen."
"I don't mind, Kev. But I think you'd have some pretty curious people around you if you ever did it in front of the guys. Ya know?"
"Yep, I know. I think it's actually easier not to do it when we're in a group though, Nick. More confusion means I can't pick up on what you're thinking as easily. But when we're alone--and especially just after sex! Well now..."
Nick saw his point entirely. "Which means you're really closer to me than anyone, doesn't it?" He reached over and ran his fingers through Kevin's thick dark hair.
Kevin laughed. "Okay, Nicky. Sweet, sweet Nick. I'm all yours. For now, anyway."
Nick smacked him playfully. "You bastard. You know what I mean!" He tried unsuccessfully to stifle his laughter.
Kevin pulled Nick closer. "What I know, Nick, is we can face an awful lot of hard times as a team. And help make life easier on the other guys, too. We've got a tough year ahead, I'm afraid."
Nick was surprised by the sudden sadness in Kevin's voice. He snuggled into Kevin's smooth chest and hoped his warmth of body and spirit would elevate Kevin's sagging humor.
"Don't worry about it, Nick. We just have to face it all as it comes. Remember we're a team. Backstreet, I mean. And that you and I have a partnership, too. Okay?"
Nick nodded against Kevin's flushed skin. "I'm ready for anything, I think."
Nick gazed at Kevin's face and was disturbed by the frown and faraway look in Kevin's eyes. "I sure wish things were as easy as that." Kevin's voice was quiet. He seemed moody. Nick had noticed this moodiness in the past, but hadn't given it much thought. Now he couldn't help wondering if Kevin's vampire nature caused it.
"Kev? You okay?" Nick wanted to draw Kevin's thoughts back to their love-play.
"Huh? Yep. Just worryin' about the future. There's no point, really. There's nothing I can do about it, after all."
Nick was puzzled. "Whatta ya mean, worrying about the future? Do you *know* something that's gonna happen?"
Kevin nodded reluctantly. "Yep, I know some things. But I know there's nothin' on God's green earth I can do about those things. Thankfully we'll mostly all survive them. Maybe grow stronger, too. I wish I could see it more clearly..." Kevin's voice trailed off. His eyes were eerie--focused somewhere else.
"Kevin!" Nick had to force himself not to shout. He felt fear and frustration. He wanted to protect Kevin from his own powers. "Try not to see stuff!" he ordered.
Kevin's eyes blinked and he turned them on Nick. He laughed. "It's okay. Sometimes the future just shows me things. Nothin' to be done but let it in, Nicky. Then sit back and digest it all. I've no idea why I'm allowed to see things I can't change. Why I'm forced to know the ugliness beforehand."
Nick reached out and pulled Kevin into a comforting hug. "Isn't it ever good stuff, Kev?"
He could feel Kevin's tense muscles bulging. Nick worked the fingers of one hand on a knot at the base of Kevin's neck. He felt Kevin shrug and shake his head.
"Hardly ever, Nick. I guess it's one of those things that makes me feel 'evil.' Sure seems like my powers would be more for good if I weren't evil somehow."
Nick gave Kevin a small shake. "I don't ever want to hear you say that, Kev," he said in an adamant tone. "You're not evil. You're different. Different isn't a bad thing. 'What makes you different makes you beautiful to me,' Kevin," he quoted, stroking Kevin's shoulder.
"I know, I know. But sometimes it's hard, Nick. I don't know. It's just... hard."
Nick rocked Kevin and felt the man shaking with silent sobs. Whatever Kevin had seen it must be pretty bad to upset him like this.
"Do you wanna tell me about it, Kev?" he finally asked when Kevin seemed calmer.
Kevin started. "God, no!"
Nick felt slightly annoyed. "Why not? I'm up to it."
"Nick, I don't like knowin' these things. Why would I want to burden you with them, too?"
It made sense. Still...
"Look, Kev, I don't care. I think it'd be easier if you shared this crap. Got it off your chest. Try me with something small."
Kevin stared into Nick's eyes. "Okay. I'm going to feel so bad at one point during the coming year I'm going to tell Brian I'm considering suicide."
"Kevin! You're joking, right?" Nick was stunned.
Kevin just continued to stare at him.
"That's a 'little thing,' Kevin?"
Kevin gave a sharp bark of laughter. "Believe it or not, yeah, it is. Compared to some of what's in store for Backstreet, our nation and the world." Kevin's green eyes glazed over as though he was looking at a picture only he could envision.
Nick called him back from his prophetic sight. "Don't even think it. Don't you ever think about killing yourself."
"Yep, well, what's goin' to happen will have me pretty shook up, I guess. I'm going to go through some changes this year. Hell, the whole world is."
"You mean you'll go through vampire changes? Or just changes?"
Kevin laughed and tugged Nick's hair. It relieved Nick to hear the lift in Kevin's deep voice. "I guess all my changes are tied up with being a vampire, Nick. Which we don't constantly have to talk about, by the way. But I was talkin' about personal changes. Issues--and exploring my personal ideals."
"Oh." Nick felt a pang. He did bring up Kevin's 'condition' more than he needed to.
"Don't you worry about it, Nickers," Kevin said, using the old nickname. Kevin kissed Nick's lips and bit softly on Nick's lower lip.
"I love you, Kev. I hate it when you're upset or worried."
"I know, Nick. But, my, bad things are a part of life. They make good things better. You can't really appreciate the good in your life 'less you deal with the bad."
Nick didn't see it. Why couldn't life always be basically happy and easy?
"You're so young. Sometimes I forget that," Kevin said, kissing Nick a second time.
"I'm not that young, Kevin," Nick reminded him, lifting his chin and surrendering his mouth to his lover.
The kisses were turning more passionate. It appeared they weren't quite finished with passion, after all.
"We'll get through things together, Kev," Nick murmured against Kevin's earlobe.
"Hell, yes," Kevin replied. "You bet."
Obviously Kevin was now hell-bent on sex--and didn't want to talk further. It was amusing to see the change in his mood and hear him answer in an off-hand way after his earlier bout of angst. Nick giggled.
"What?" Kevin asked, nuzzling Nick's neck.
"You're so interesting. I love all the sides to your personality," Nick answered, shivering from the feel of Kevin's lips working on his skin.
Kevin's teeth pierced him. Nick felt a tiny sting before the warm flow of his blood responded to Kevin's soft suckling.
"Mmm..." Kevin's deep voice vibrated against Nick's small wounds.
"Oh. Oh, God, Kevin," Nick called out, feeling the electric current rushing through his body.
Kevin stopped abruptly and guided Nick into a different position with strong hands. Nick was tingling all over. He began to pant in anticipation of Kevin's penetration.
Then Kevin was thrusting into him. His bowel seemed on fire with sensation. Nick rode the wave of Kevin's lust, groaning loudly.
"Mine!" Kevin cried as he climaxed. Bareback, Nick thought; Kevin's seed is in me. He felt himself shudder and spurt. For some reason the very idea had sent him over the edge.
This was a rare occasion. Usually Kevin was adamant about safe sex.
They collapsed together in a tangled heap, Kevin's arms thrown possessively over Nick's large body.
"That was real nice, Nicky," Kevin crooned.
Nick grinned and giggled. "Yeah. It was. But I think I'm about to... um..." He let the thought fill his head. Nick wondered if he could actually 'send' a thought to Kevin if he focused hard enough.
Kevin unwrapped his arms and helped Nick to sit up. Then he patted Nick's naked ass cheek as Nick stood.
"Better get in there, hadn't you?" Kevin prompted.
It had worked! Nick had thought about his need to shit out the ass full of semen and Kevin had read his mind. Very, very cool.
Nick raced to the bathroom with his rectal muscles clenched tight. He sat and expelled the liquid, sighing with relief. His butt was burning. The sex had been just a little rough.
"Better use one of these," Kevin suggested, leaning to press an anal suppository into Nick's fingers. Kevin had appeared so suddenly, Nick found himself blinking in surprise.
Nick took the small white bullet and shoved it home. It felt weird; but he knew it would soothe the tender flesh. "I'll never get used to that," he said, using a wad of tissue to gingerly wipe himself. He realized he wasn't really referring to the suppository. He was thinking about the way Kevin could move so quickly and quietly from one place to another.
"Stand up here," Kevin ordered. "I'll clean you up."
Nick complied, grasping the edge of the sink and leaning slightly forward. He felt Kevin part his legs and begin to wash him with some wet soft cloth. It was warm and felt very nice. Kevin was practically purring as he leaned against Nick's back.
Then Kevin's warmth drew away. Nick continued to lean, daydreaming.
A soft swat made Nick jump. "Back to bed, baby," Kevin directed. "I should make sure you've got that up there far enough, I suppose," he said, following behind Nick.
How would he do that, exactly? Nick wondered if Kevin would insert one of his long fingers inside. Or would he manage to be hard enough to impale Nick yet again?
"You naughty, naughty boy," Kevin said, rubbing the top of Nick's head fondly. "Such thoughts. My, my."
Nick loved it when Kevin was in a mood to tease him. Such behavior from the usually serious Kevin was both poignant and sweet. But he didn't want to allow Kevin to distract him from his concerns. He needed to make Kevin see his point of view...
"I love you, Kevin," Nick said, his tone earnest. "You shouldn't keep anything from me. I can't help you if you won't let me."
"I know, Nick. I know you want to help. And that's enough. The knowing you care. But I'm not going to tell you things you don't need to know. Some of it will rear up soon enough as it is, Nicky. Just let it go."
Kevin was spooning him. It was late. The sex had been delightful--very satisfying. It seemed it always was.
But there was more than passion between them. There was more than Kevin's secret between them. They shared a bond of blood. Nick could feel it down to his toes; he wiggled them and let himself drift.
"I love you, Nick. More than I can say. More than I can ever say."
Yeah, Nick was in love with a vampire.
Well, he wouldn't trade that love for anything.
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